“This,” said Reepicheep “is where I go on alone.”
-C.S. Lewis, The Voyage of the Dawn Treader
The envelope arrived thirty-six months after the civil courts had declared our marriage over.
The contents when read told me of another type of ending.
Fingers hover over the keypad now as I hesitate to type the words.
So much of this life I share, yet certain pieces find comfort, alone, in the quiet confines of the heart.
The journey that brought me the letter from the Catholic Diocese, didn’t go unsupported.
A small team of prayer warriors leant their words to the examination of how my love story began. They relived times long since forgotten.
I am forever grateful for their contributions. Their adjectives painted a picture of a young women I needed to recall.
Gratitude extends as well to the man whose life I shared, as he willingly participated, one more time, in our ending.
Declaration of Nullity.
It doesn’t mean the union never existed.
It doesn’t mean those girls weren’t born of love.
What was missing there can now be found in his time, not mine.
Twenty years removed from the start of the story, a final gift, forgiveness.
And in this we find our joy.