January 28, 2025

Dear Brock,

Where to begin?

So much has changed yet everything is the same.

Ellery is still spunky, Audrey introspective, Sidney determined.

There is a new puppy. Yes, I said yes. Who would have thought that?

There are a lot of moments each month where I want to text you.

Our coparenting was one of mutual admiration for the lives we created.

And now you are our watchman.

Rest easy my friend, they are steady.

That being said I need your help.

Remind them of their worth. Let them feel your love.

They question, as all teenage girls do, their place in this world.

Help them to remain resilient yet kind.

The best people stand ready to acknowledge the pain present in this life. They are here for that.

They ache for you and want others to understand that longing.

They know you had to leave but feel lost without you as their constant

What they need today is the reminder of your being.

Bring them sunsets.

Shine down rainbows.

Remind them of the magic of being fully present in a moment.

I am sorry I couldn’t understand.

I wish I had been more available.

Our parenting partnership has not ended,

it’s morphed into a new phase.

Send me signs when you sense the rain clouds forming. Guide me in the pursuit of parenting.

I know you will always be around and in that I am grateful.

H