They handle it all with the grace grown women envy.
Together we navigate the hello’s and the goodbye’s that have grown easier over time.
Audrey to me last night at bed “I miss you when we are gone but I am so happy to be with Dad”.
They are learning a lesson now. There will always be someone in their life to miss.
But this missing is for the moment. The goodbye not forever and the ties that bind us as family, them to me and he to I, will always remain.
I have the joy of watching them flourish under their father’s care, while my soul is feed spending hours focusing on what makes me a better mom, a better person.
There is magic in these choices we have made. While not ideal, not perfect- we have the chance to live a life filled with opportunity for all of us.
A Joyful Life 
It takes a lot of strength to accept. So I salute you. I’m more of the selfish kind. Even though I know that Mr N has lots of fun with his dad, I feel bad for my Mr T who is so attached to me. And that’s where my selfishness comes in. I want Mr T with me alllll the time. He is non verbal so my situation differs. Maybe, maybe if he talked I would find that same strength. But for now I don’t have peace…